[atrb=border,0,true][cs=7][bg=C7BF94] I’ll Always remember It was late Afternoon It lasted forever And ended so soon It was about time to dance in the middle open madness yet again. Time had passed since I lost my memory and it had become fuzzy, confusing as well as blurry. Stepping down the aisle of an oasis I forgot about my manners. Lips that graced my nape went open while watching the grazing stepped field of this beautiful kingdom. It was my first time here, my strides has just moved of their own free will, it surprised me actually because I never let them show me the way. Now standing upon a fine emerald hill I looked over a land that was covered in emerald, love and perhaps hope? What a delightful place to be living in, was it not? Why, I am confusing myself again am I not? Wait, stop thinking Cal! You can not stand these kinds of things; they will just consume your memory yet again. Oh right, right…I forgot about that. I slipped my lips shut and wondered, was there really such fine equines living here? Well, maybe they are not as fine as me? Dream on little lass, dream on. Oh yeah, that is correct I am yet to become the loner in these lands, I must apologise, I forgot. Wait, APOLOGISE? What is wrong with me? I can not apologise to myself, which is just clearly wrong, right? Yes of course it is I am not insane after all. I must be sane when I meet the king, if I will ever be acknowledged as his stand by lover after all. Listen to yourself; you are already thinking of a lovely way to capture a stallion? You are disgusting! Why, yes of course I am I should stop this nonsense, I can not think of a good way to persuade him either way. Now then, walk calmly, try to act sweet and disappear against the crowd. No, no that is just wrong. I must show him I am worthy, yes that is the right way. Now, where is he? It was the day of the departure of one creature and another’s well being. The shady cliffs that surrounded these lands parted with each cave and mysterious tunnel inside the threat against another player. But that was not the true story of these lands, was it? No, there with elegant strides were a lone lass stepping forward, trying her best to not show how jealous she was of the other females’ around her. The plains that entered now and then were few but rich on their moisture of emerald and could make any equine hungry at the spot. As the soft field became deserted clean hooves stepped over the dusty cover and as if someone called the newly added ‘Ess her head shot up. Twin pointers flicked to the side, arche tensed up lightly and muscles tightened while she pawed the dusty ground once. The distant breeze danced in between her threads of golden cream and soon, shadows disappeared. Sunlight lit upon a figurine of dappled gold. Hue was set up in a majestic way yet it seemed at the same that it was held calm without anxiety. She was not one the high alert this time of day no, that was highly not recommended for any lass. What would happen? Well, the thing that will usually happen is that they become a nerve wreck and can not find any love or hope in this world, good point for her but she would have guilt for it. Why would it be at such? We need to gather information about others just to succeed ourselves? It is kind of tragic really, but that is how life has begun with and it is little we can do about it. Dark Amber eyes moved looking at the deserted horizon, why had she come to this place either way? Oh that was an easy question; she felt lonely and had the hope to meet someone. But there is one problem; she is too shy to talk with anyone so how will this go? Let us stop interacting with each other and find out, shall we? How much had the time passed already? I flicked one of my twin emotions but heard nothing at all. See? They have already left you alone love. Oh shut up…! It was getting slightly annoying having one to talk with her all the time inside; she was not sure why that voice had come either. It never came out and gave her bravery, no it just made her loose confidence instead. Oh glory how lucky am I? Well, I can not blame myself after all, I do not even remember my past since I went in and left some sort of Valley was it? Yes, that was correct, a Valley. I wonder were it is now because I have never stepped in it ever since I came here. With an annoying voice inside my head, I am really lucky I must say that. Even though thinking all by myself is kind of boring but what can I do? Many here are avoiding me, is it because I am too beautiful because of them? No, it is because you are too ugly for anyone’s’ taste, wake up sleeping beauty. Why can you just be quiet so I can actually think? I would, but you think so many funny things that I’ll have to comment everything. At least someone is amused, for the matter at least. Releasing my strides even further I found a revealing tree, it was getting hot today and there were no lake to be seen. Wow, why am I thirsty and tired at the same time? No really, why? I can’t even remember last time I drank or slept. Nostrils flashed sigh until I stepped underneath the tree, at least it was shady enough to give a cooling cover. Lowering my barrel slowly I felt how my muscles eased up and nipped some of the grass not far from me. Twin peeks flicked a little but I only heard shuddering whisper, they can do what they want. I will not really care. Looking down at the drenched sunlight the voice faded and I could finally go at ease. Maybe I’ll get lucky after all, maybe someone will come and say hi, but what will I tell him back? Oh no, I do not know anything at all, I am really useless in these things. Stop thinking, think about the beautiful sunset and let everything come to you. Maybe it will even work. You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark grey sky I was changed Status|Finished WC|1009 OOC| Open For Rainey!

[atrb=border,0,true][cs=7][bg=C7BF94] I’ll Always remember It was late Afternoon It lasted forever And ended so soon The early sea breeze danced around her nape as eye lids closed down. Threads of golden cream intertwined with the wind before the scent of another equine entered her memory. Caution was set at high alert knowing the scent was from a male presentation of the race equus. Muscles and nerves tensed up releasing small coverage of karbondiokside and inhaling oxygen. Closed eye lids slid open with a sudden gesture; tiara turned slowly not wanting to realize the tall and rather handsome brute standing a few feet away from her. Was it maybe her lucky day? Of course it was not, she was just not used to company, that was all. But one thing frightened her very much. The deep rumbling tone of his concords made the anxious ‘Ess jump up on her strides again. Muscles worked, pumping their energy into her strides as she rose faster then a second and stood at her fully 16 hands. Her body was truly graceful as she was a true being of Andalusian and Lusitano. Her pelt stood out of dappled gold with a lean figure of the feminine nature with a head gracefully shaped to fit her body departure, she seemed like a picture perfect right? Well let us see if you can find her flaws, because she has such a list of them that is true. Wow, that stallion was really gorgeous, why would he come to me? Because he pities you, what would you expect? Oh shut up! I did not talk to you. No, I just commented what you thought. I must be really lucky to be stuck with an one minded voice trying to get me down, but what should I do? No wait, I should bow my respect, yes of course. But Uhm…How do I really bow? You really do know nothing do you not? I know many things! Just watch. Slowly I moved a stride forward and leant down giving a deep bow hoping it was giving the respect a brute needed. Suddenly I froze, I did not know why really I just stood there in the least worthy position I could ever have imagined. Come on! Work brain, work! I demanded myself to move and finally I got up from my silly looking position. Looking up carefully I felt my lips almost gasp again seeing him fully now. He was too handsome for me! Why had he come? I almost stepped back but my whole body was paralyzed. Turning my head to the side and down I flicked my ears in a shy matter. Don’t look at me, I’m ugly. Oh I wanted to say those words but they never came out. I was at loss yet again. Why could I not just be like everyone else and talk normally and laugh? Because your social skills are at the bottom of earth below zero. No they are not, I am of high class and I can speak as much as I want to. Then why don’t you speak to him then? Because, I will just be a bother. Yeah right, in your dreams. The battle field for her inside and outside would never show as the young ‘Ess stood there. A figure paralyzed ready to even be force bred with, she could never say no because she was too shy and scared to talk. When would this internal battle end? Probably in her next life, but when would that be? She could not even remember where she came from other then Spain, that her parents were both highly acknowledged leaders yet captured by two legged. She had been the only one that escaped and guess what happened after that? She does not even know. So here she stood, too shy to talk, to paralyzed to walk and having a battle of her own in her mind. Of course she was like every other female in this world, she wanted a child of her own, and who did not? She was just too frightened to ask because she did not know anybody who would be crazy enough to fill her with their sperm. Swishing her creamy tail slowly she gained consciousness and returned to the normal world. The voice had gone to bed, for now at least. A new battle would rise the next day and she was already exhausted. But there were just one problem. This Knight had come out of nowhere and had asked her two questions, how could she answer to that? It was hard enough to contain the other voice without screaming out loud but now she had to talk? This day was getting worse and worse. Finally, she went to sleep, I win this battle then. I eyed him slowly but was still to shy to do anything. What should I do? I could not talk; neither could I walk so how would this really end? I want to just lay down and sleep, not caring if I do not have protection. Protection? What a word he says, he sounds so royal and I have a feeling he was out of my reach at least. Tell him you love him, you want to carry his foal. Do it! You said you were going to bed! Ha! I tricked you then. Go home where you belong. Oh, but darling, I belong right in your mind. Be quiet and let me think for once. I shredded my mind and ignored that tiny voice laughing at me. I need to find the lightest words, the ones I can say without saying too much. Wait that was the solution, I will say the smallest things I can and hopefully he will get bored of me and walk away. You’ll get lonely again. You are right, wait! Was I not ignoring you? Not anymore darling. Ignore her, ignore her at least now I got the words I would say. I just hope they will come out wise, small and good enough without stumbling nervously. Ok, here goes. ;;I, I do not have a home Lord.;; There, she said her words, as simple as they could be at least, yet inside she was still in a battle. The laughing voice mocking what she had said and how she felt embarrassed. Maybe her words were wrong after all? She had not talked with any equine that she knew of since she was well, since she was a yearling. But then again, she was a four year old, a grown up now. She should be good enough with handling herself, right? Well that answer will be answered right away; she could never handle herself because she is too scared of what other animals thought of her. So here she stood, her sweet fragile voice box had conquered some words, they were wise enough but would this handsome stallion buy them? Or was he too dazzled of her looks that he was going to stay? It will stay a mystery until they talk, right? Great work sleeping beauty, you win the awards of the most pathetic female here. Oh shut up! No thanks, this is too much of fun to be quiet and go to sleep. Right. You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark grey sky I was changed Status|Finished WC|1197 OOC| She thinks and battles with herself a lot ^.^’

[atrb=border,0,true][cs=7][bg=C7BF94] I’ll Always remember It was late Afternoon It lasted forever And ended so soon Somehow the distress seemed to enlarge more upon the stallions’ position then hers’. Getting caution mixed with curiosity and a battle was not the best combination in her pride but she would not give up. She fetched her equine amber eyes in looking straight at him; she was caught by surprise by everything around these lands. Why had someone come here? Why would she be the one actually caught off guard? Wait; were there not both of them whom were caught of guard? Of course it was, she was making excuses to feel depressed again. Hiding her mixed emotions into one the female felt more shy now as she listened to his words. ;;Well, I suppose you could stay in my lands, the Shanlia Mountains. I am Fëanáro Ar-Feiniel, Light King of the horses, but you may call Naro. May I know your name, Miss?;; He was the King of Lights? No wonder she was caught of guard by clear surprise. A stallion, she could handle but a King? That was out of her league but she could not admit that to anyone, not even herself. She felt the last sun rays scatter upon her golden dapple figurine and slowly she felt to get bravery enough to actually talk. Of course, this was a fragile bravery we were talking about. Oh my gosh! He is a king? How can I put up with that? You can’t, now tell him to beat it! No, that is just rude, a king needs his respect and so do I. No you don’t. Fine, then I do not but I will not loose this battle. You’ve already lost is deary. Yes maybe, in your dreams. I watched the handsome stallion yet again and felt how my heart connected with heaven. His own charcoal eyes showed confusement and somehow were it maybe, nervous? Wait, he was nervous? How come he had become that? He was the king, but maybe that just did not have anything with it? I felt shattered to the bones by his eyes; I wanted them to be soft, warm and gentle looking. Not confused and nervous, though I will not blame him, it is my fault after all. Now, what should I really tell him? My full name and meaning? No, that will be just too hard to try right? Yes of course, I should state my name and Um…now I have no idea anymore. Please Lord; help me find strength to give him the right words. Are you Christian? Who asked you? No one, just asked. Well, stop asking. I felt how my lips moved slowly, I felt still helpless but I could not show it, not to him, I would kill myself before I let him see how helpless I really were. ;;Calandra, I do not want to be a bother for you Lord Naro;; The soft voice had gained a slight strength, but there were few who actually noticed it. She was maybe not a master in disguise but who could blame her for feeling helpless? Her social skills were pretty much down but she still kept her high position. Her eyes held a shy look that many would never see her true face that was hidden behind the mask. Oh, many did not know how such a beauty was standing here alone; she could not know either other then that the ocean had called for her. This beautiful place had locked her eye sight and she had to admit, it was quiet a stunning look she was taken back with. She felt somehow such a quiet ease as she gazed upon the land that was shattered in different colours of crimson, orange and sun. Softening her amber eyes she was satisfied with just staying silent while waiting for the Lord to talk. Yes she knew he was probably calming seeing how her look as changing or maybe he was not? One could never know, but at least he was of the pure path. She was already more relaxed with that. Who knew, maybe she would get lucky and not be broken or torn like any other stallion would do to her. She looked so sweet and fragile yes? Well that was her weakness, she was so sensitive to minds and words from other that she got easily shattered and that had become her biggest flaw. She needed to learn right? But who would be her lover and master? The one who could actually teach her? Well, time will tell that, right? You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark grey sky I was changed Writing;; Complete My Song;; Cry by Mandy Moore Anything Else;; I love them bothXD

[atrb=border,0,true][cs=7][bg=C7BF94] I’ll Always remember It was late Afternoon It lasted forever And ended so soon Maybe there was such as a mere heroin and hero? But would these two fall in love like a fairy tail? Oh no, that would never happen because she was just as ugly as small jumping frog, graceful yes but she lacked the confidence to speak of such beautiful words as others. Stepping through a highway of different paths she had always chosen the wrong but would this be the right time? Was she finally in the place of coming to someone wanting her? Hope flattered her heart as she stood there, she could do this, could she not? Of course she could, but there were just one problem. Slowly her head had gained a speed of spinning and somehow she felt as though someone called her name. Ears flicked with caution looking up yet there were no one there. Is it perhaps my imagination? The thought struck her so easy but it could not have been that, could it? She had clearly heard someone call her, the whispering of a song and the mocking laughter of the one known as her relative. But, she had none right? She could not remember anyone could she? Wait, yes she could recall one but she was pronounced dead by the animals. Her twin and only sister, Alcippe. That child had been in death of a long time, her mother had told her that the young palomino died before reaching the ground. It happens when one give birth to twins, I am sorry that you could not see her.Had it all been a lie? No of course not, her mother would never lie to her. Or, would she? I felt kind of startled by my own thoughts; I could not doubt my mother because she was an honest creature. I let my guard fall again before I noticed how the king relaxed more. He did not want to harm me, he was too good for me was he not? I watched how his muscles loosened and how his ears relaxed. A sudden urge to go to him giving him a lick on the nape or even nudge his neck flashed into my brain. What am I thinking of? I had already listened to his soft words and how they were so relaxed but something bothered me. He had taken a long time to reply, had he maybe been nervous as well? Slowly I recalled his voice in my mind and how soothing it was, he really was a dream stallion after all was he not? You would not be a bother, Lady Calandra, actually you would be quite the opposite. You would be doing me a great favor by joining me in Shanlia Mountains. I would be honored if one of your beauty and grace chose to join my herd. I would not be a bother? Oh how sweet he is to speak of such words but would he keep that? I really hoped so; I wanted to be by his side forever, right? Slowly my heart started to ache for him, it was throbbing and I felt shy yet again. Why was it happening to me? Why must I fall for someone out of my reach? I have not known him for a while and my heart is already throbbing for him? Oh please Lord, help from this pain, I need the bravery. ;;Favor Lord? Am I just something to be claimed for? I am far from beautiful but if I can seek your protection and company I would accept your request.;; Oh such a hushed and fragile voice she held. She had told him the truth as she was a sensitive one. But having a heart throbbing for him, a voice mocking him and her shy nature getting nervous she was playing with fire. Maybe this was getting too complicated for her? It would only make her stronger and who knew; maybe they would get a connection of few rights? Well, she could not get that easily carried away as she did not know if he even loved anyone. At least she knew she was not beautiful and for that she would maybe stay alone but a little buckskin filly or colt with him would make her more proud then the daylight of the day. Looking down at her slender and lean strides she dared to move her body two steps closer to him and already, she felt his warmth. How had she fallen in his trap? Was it written all over her how easily fooled she was? Oh she was easy to fool yes but also easy to notice the trap, but not now, no, her life was somehow connected with this stallion and her heart ached for him. She could ask many questions but this was what the Lord wanted and how come she would ever get out of it? Not many will know what Yonder has for them and Calandra was the one who always thought of how her life was connected to heaven. She was maybe not sent form heaven but she had been sent from somewhere, right? You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark grey sky I was changed Writing;; Complete My Song;; Cry by Mandy Moore Anything Else;; Sorry if I’m making weird plots or anything ^-^’ I’m just typing what my head tells me hehe

[atrb=border,0,true][cs=7][bg=3B2B1A] Empty house far away Lost in lonely space You know you've felt the same /As sunlight started to grow into darkness she got agitated. Dark hourglass was not loveable light she held dear; no it was rather the one she wanted to keep a tight distance to when she was alone. A mistress to her own child was one of the true forms Cal would ever be. Well she was born and raised as a light, a lover as well as a beautiful maiden but her life had just turned the opposite. She was broken, cautious and one more thing, she had become a lot more experienced when it came to take care of her self conscious body. Her eyes darted from the lowering sun to the stallion whom shone with his darkened coat yet she had already noticed his detailed look. Was he perhaps, a warrior? Oh but were not all stallions that? Oh yes of course they were, she was just playing around that was all. Her thoughts could wander all they want as long as she kept a distant leash on them. They were not allowed to state out of her lips and neither makes her distant, they were allowed though to give her ideas and perhaps a way to talk her way into the stallions’ heart.\ /What ought I to feel when I looked at him. Love? Flattery? Flirtatious? Well it was an arousal feeling I shall grant you that but I could not get myself to speak, it felt still too shy to do that. Even so I must say he had a soft edge to him, I could feel relaxed without giving it a second thought. Flares reached out to inhale the soft air of his masculine scent as well as the fresh shore that whispered with the soft sand. Oh, I would long to feel the soft sand underneath my hooves, dance there with this handsome tall stallion with the sand flowing. Somehow I could already see it, but not only that. I could see my child, a small fragile palomino filly, wait a second my child? My heart was swept away a could of seconds as a ivory stallion flashed in my memory, I was a mother? But how? How had I even forgotten about it? The warm feeling of a fragile child beside me was frightening but also it made me wonder, what had happened to my daughter? Was she still alive? Or had she become an angel? My audits caught his words and I was back on earth but I could not help it but think. Where is my daughter? You are quite pretty, Miss Calandra, but I will not press the subject if you don't wish to hear it. And my company and protection is all I offer, if that if all you want. I would never just collect mares like they were something to be possessed, I find those who need me and I give them the option to join me. If you wish to become friends, then I am fine with that, but if all you seek of me is the safety I can provide, I am fine with that as well.\ /It was hard to tell whether or not this life threatening evening was good for her or if it would take her life, but Calandra was still moving. There moving with a mocking yet handsome grace was an Andalusian stallion, his ivory coat shone so softly it was still taking her breath away. She could still not believe that he was here with her though, stepping by his side the 7 months pregnant Calandra felt proud over being his lead mare. Vivaldi was a beautiful stallion as well as he held his words of protection to her as well as love. She was still so pure and innocent and it had affected her judgemental side. Lips touched his masculine neck softly and she felt his eyes. Dark eyes of a pair looked into each other with the same love, the same passion and the same gentleness of a newly added pair. He was an equine leader yet he always had her by his side, this was making her heart feel warm and loved and she ignored the others. She just did not know that ignoring them was the worst thing she could do, and for that she would be learning the great difference between being loved and hated. Because one can play lovely, but one can never play hatred. Not the one that was tearing these females inside, and that little Calandra, was something you leaned of that age,\ /I could not believe how stupid I had been of that time, why had I ignored those beautiful females? I could still not remember what happened when I was pregnant with my own child, now I did not even know if she was living. Was this what happened while I was staying at that mist full valley? These thoughts made me think even more about myself and made me realize how selfish I had been. Maybe I was a bad choice to follow his lead? But my heart was already throbbing for two equines now yet Vivaldi was already in my past was he not? I need not to think of him anymore, he does not belong to me and me not to him either. It was how this life would become for now and for me to finally give my answer and choice. I needed to become the one I wanted to be, I could not fear my other self and neither could I listen to that voice. Thank Lord that she was still asleep and not talking, my head was throbbing from her excuses to comment the lord with rude comments. I guess life will not become an easy task but at least now I would have a place to call my home and that was something I would never wish for, before now.\ ;;Oh, why thank you Lord, that means a lot to me. But when you say I can ask for thing, does that mean anything? I mean, oh, sorry for giving off weird comments, I shall not say anything before I speak too much. But one thing is certain, if I can hope for more I will accept your request;; From the shallows in love To the depths of your scars You know you want to change Writing;; Complete My Song;; 250 & Dark Stars by Fallin Up Anything Else;; I love that song^_^ it fits her better.